Staying Connected

My family had a rough year in 2014. We lost the pillar of our family. We lost our mother. Here we are 3 months later and I still miss her. Our family looks okay on the outside but honestly, we are hurting more than ever before. We are trying to find our way in this world without her. I wish I could say that it was easy but it's not. It's especially hard to try to stay connected. But we keep trying. We are fragile with each other, we are there for one another when needed. But I have a desire for more. I especially have a strong desire to be there for my baby sister. I feel a great responsibility for her especially now that her mom is gone. But at the same time, I don't want to be too pushy. It's a fine line that must be walked. To make sure she is okay, and try to steer her in the right direction yet be weary of being overbearing and bossy. I have a tendency to be pushy and I really am trying to not be that way with her. I want her to know that I am always here but don't want to be so in her face. I know she is super independent and I respect that about her. I see so many wonderful traits in her. I see a strong woman in her. But I know from experience how hard it can be to see yourself as strong. You never fully comprehend how strong you are until you have no other choice and I know without a doubt in my mind that she is going to grow substantially within the next year.
Tonight I read scripture and was turned to Psalm 138:3 where it says that when we call out to him he emboldens us, he gives our soul strength. You see we can't do it on our own. There is no way we'd be able to overcome this life without Him. We must rely on Him daily. My hope lies in Him and Him alone. I know with my God on my side I cannot fail. He sees so much more for me than I could even imagine, He sees so much more for my family than what we have become. He is the driving force behind it all. He strengthens my soul. So while I learned how to be the strong woman I am today from the woman I called mom; I also know that long after she is gone my spirit will be upheld by the firm foundation that was placed before me by my heavenly Father.
We just have to make the effort to stay connected to Him and to each other. We cannot do this life without Him, but He also put us all here to do this life together, to connect with one another thru Him. Although we may not always see eye to eye we must make an effort everyday to love one another as He loves us.
So I pray tonight for continued strength for my family. For healing and for Godly connection.