Captain Emilie

Without going into tons of detail; yesterday was a slightly anxious day for me. I am a planner. I like to know what's ahead so I can prep and do what needs to be done, and get my mind right. I know that before any big task can be accomplished there are almost always many small tasks that need to be finished first. I feel it is my job in this family to ensure that all those things get accomplished in a timely manner so that we can reach our goal. More often than not, this can cause me to be anxious, and stressed out, especially if I'm unsure of what the plan will be. We have a lot things that are slightly in limbo, up in the air, no set dates; and that causes me to be incredibly anxious. Almost to the point of severe worry. 

This morning when I woke up, God reminded me to meet with him. I can't say that I was surprised by what I read; he pretty much told me to chill the heck out because he's got this. Lol! And it's so true! He knew I was feeling incredibly anxious and he provided me with his word to ensure that no matter how much I plan, and worry, and try to navigate this ship my own way, he is the ocean and will direct us in the way he wants us to go. I can plan, and do everything in my power to ensure we are ready, and packed but ultimately it is up to God, and he will direct us as to where we need to go. He takes on the stress for us, as a gift. A precious gift at that. We need only be still, and listen, wait and watch for him to make all the moves in our lives. 

Now I can honestly say I am excited, and feel at peace. I know God will provide, and place us where he wants us. He isn't going to forsake or harm us. We are his children; he is only going to provide and love us. So God, let your will be done in us. 

Lighting my path

I need to remember to make my days count. They are already limited as it is and I need to remember to walk out this life thru him. I can't keep worrying about little things, it's a reflection on Him when I don't put my faith in my father. He loves me, he will not forsake me nor leave me. I will keep my eyes on Him and his light will shine thru me. I am excited for our adventure our Lord has set out for us and I will obediently and trustingly walk in his lighted path. Thank you Lord for reminding my heart of how much you love me. 

Make it count

Tonight I had a long conversation with my daughter about her day. She went on and on about art class. While she was talking I couldn't help but notice her enthusiasm and emphasis on her experience.  She constantly pushed her hair behind her ears and used her hands a lot while she was explaining. She is growing up everyday and so often I take for granted these small moments with her. I'm always in a rush, always have something to do. But tonight, I took the time. God gave me a glimpse of her soul, of the sweet innocence that is my daughter. To her, the world is still new. I envy that. I miss looking at the world with her curiosity and excitement. Made me realize that it's okay to slow down. Also made me feel guilty for not taking more time for my girl. Mental note: make time, because there is always, always, always time for what truly matters.