Jesus Calling

I started reading "Jesus Calling: Women's Edition" on Saturday and I am floored by how wonderful it is. Sarah Young is the author and she puts the devotionals in His words and it makes the reading so much more intimate. I find myself wanting to read two devotionals in one day but remind myself that I need to take it at a slow pace so I can really take it all in.
Today's reading was on learning to deepen your dependence on Him. Part of being a follower of Christ means to rely on Him and His teachings and allowing Him to plant His desires within you. Not going the way YOU think you should go, but the way HE would have you go. That has been a tough struggle in my life. I always think I know what's best and that I have it all figured out, when in reality I haven't got a clue. It wasn't until I started seeking God's guidance and praying for Him to direct my path that I started to get an idea of what direction my life needed to go in. The more in depth of a relationship I build with my Heavenly Father, the more He pours into me. For example, I'm in the beginning stages of finding out how I can go theology school. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that I of all people would be interested in that. But I heard God speak to me and I think that this is what He wants me to do. I'm not saying I'm going to become a pastor or preacher, I just think if I'm going to be writing a blog on what I'm reading it would beneficial to me (and my few readers) if I had a background in theology. Who knows what all is in store for me, but I have never been more eager to learn everything I can about His word. As always, I'll be praying for direction and guidance, but I'll also be praying for courage. lol! God knows I'm terrified to try to go back to school, especially with two kids! But as Sarah Young mentions in her book, "True dependence is not simply asking Me to bless what you have decided to do. It is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you." So that's what I'm doing, opening my mind, my heart and placing complete faith on Him.

Psalm 139: 7-10 NIV

" Where can I go from you Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast."