I have a serious problem with always trying to please everyone. No matter sometimes, what the cost. I tend to go out of my way to be at certain events to show my support; even if it's late, or far away or even if I'm broke. Some would say that's a good characteristic to have, but I see it as a problem. Why? Because when I don't get it in return and my feelings get hurt. I am the type of person that feels that if I do something for you than you'll do the same for me. That's not
why I do it though. I do it because I enjoy being supportive to those I love. But I find that more often than not I'm the one that gets stepped on, or forgotten. It can be painful or even make me angry. I don't want to feel that way. I don't want to feel animosity towards anyone. But when you give and give and give, and all they do is take, it makes me wonder what am I doing wrong? It makes me second guess
my actions. Should I keep doing what I'm doing, which I consider to be the right thing, even though I get the crappy end of the deal. Or should I just stop in order to not feel this way anymore? I'm lost, and I don't know what I should do. So in times like this, I seek counsel from Him.
I am a follower of Christ. While I am not perfect, and fail at many things, I strive to be whom He wants me to be. With that being said, I know what He wants me to do. In this life we face many obstacles, but we must keep moving forward. With His help we can overcome anything. He doesn't promise that it will be easy but He does promise that He will be there with us every step of the way. To lead us, guide us,...direct our path. So that tells me that while it is difficult and often painful, I must keep doing what I know is the right thing. Even if it never comes back to me. Even if they never notice. I will seek my reward in heaven, from my Heavenly Father. I will not stress on wanting certain results that I think or feel are correct. I will rest assured on His timing, His presence, and His ways.
Romans 12:12 "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer."
My friend, I *highly* recommend the book, "When People are Big and God is Small" by Edward T. Welch
ReplyDeleteI am in the same boat with you, sister!
I will definitely be adding that to my reading list. Thank you!! <3
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